How many times did he say the unsayable,
Before I finally got it?
“I’ve met the most wonderful woman
in the world” he said,
“I don’t love you” he said,
“I want to be single and free”
saying the unsayable.
And the time came
When I said the unsayable
“Fly and be free” I said.
“I am getting a divorce”
“Oh, you say that now,”
he said.
“Tomorrow you will change your mind”
But I found myself
after twenty six years
of marriage
saying the unsayable.
“I have to get on with my life”
I said
“And you aren’t going to be a part of it”
And now, when I reflect on those events
which took place thirty-two years ago
and ponder on how much my life has changed
because in the end
I was able to say the unsayable–
“I don’t love you anymore”
and I knew it was true.
Sandra Lee Smith
Originally posted February 2012
Updated August 27, 2018
