Your absence is ever present on my mind;
I think of you throughout the days and nights,
I wonder where you are and what you may be doing,
And think that you would be a welcome sight.
The years have gone by quickly; they have caught me unaware,
As I aged and watched my sons all growing tall;
They married and have children who are growing up now, too.
And I remembered you throughout it all.
You might have been the father of my children, had I known,
enough to wait for you to come back home;
Instead I married someone else and after all these years,
I find myself now living all alone.
And when I hear a certain song–our song–
My heart and mind race quickly back in time,
To a place, another place, where far away
I was yours alone and surely you were mine.
Your absence is a presence in a very secret place,
A place where no one else but I can go
And how can it be that all these years have come and gone;
And where you are today, I do not know.
Sandra Lee Smith
January, 2009